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The Game

PROM QUEEN
HOMECOMING QUEEN
JUNIOR MISS
STRAIGHT A’S
TEAM CAPTAIN
TOP ATHLETE
POPULAR
BOYS

    Hide it all, fill it up, fix it all-Everyone else
    Make them believe    
    That you’re perfect
    Image vs. Mirror-Just a mirage
    Have them Fooled

USED ME
PRETENDED TO CARE
BODY WAS A MASTERPIECE-
    for you to destroy.
I MEAN NOTHING TO YOU
SHARED ME
LIED TO ME
LIED ABOUT ME
DAILY TORMENT
WALK ALONE
MIND GAMES
    Game over. I lose.

 

FIND CONTROL
STRENGTH
MY BODY
    I can do what I want with it.
    You can’t have it.
NUMBERS DROPPING
    I’m winning.


CONCERNS
COMMENTS
LOOKS
DOCTOR
LYING, HIDING, PRETENDING
    Anything to keep control.
    You won’t take it from me.


“EAT! EAT!”
“EAT! EAT!”
    Make them shut up.
SHOVEL IT IN
GET RID OF IT LATER
TRICK THEM
    Still in control. Right?
HIDE IT
FINGER DOWN
BRING IT OUT
    Get rid of the pain. The guilt. The excuses. The loneliness.

LOSING CONROL
GAINING WEIGHT
NUMBERS CHANGING
    Losing the game. Losing. Losing.

 

GET OUT
MAKE IT END
NO POINT
NOT WORTH IT
TOO HARD
TOO MUCH PAIN
    Say goodbye. You’re done.
PILLS IN HAND
HE WALKS IN
STONE WALL BEGINS TO FALL
ONE BY ONE
    Tears.


NEED HELP
SHE TALKS
WANTS ME TO TALK
I HATE HER.
    You will not take it out of me. My secrets. My life.

PRYING DEEPER
DIGGING IN
    A key to the locked door.
NO!
YOU ARE NOT WELCOME.

BREAKING THE WALL
CLEARING THE SMOKE
CALMNESS COMES
    Journey to Freedom.

 

STRENGTH
REAL
TRUTH
I AM WORTH IT.
I AM SOMEONE.
I AM STRONG.
I DESERVE RESPECT.
I DESERVE TO WIN.
    And so do you.

 


WRITTEN BY Amy Hanna